Doodle~! Was supposed to be for Timbermoonkiss on deviantart for being so sweet to me...
but I felt like I ought to draw her something better *__*!!

As for my foundation results, I got a distinction on my essay... which funnily enough, 90% of it was recycled from my A2 essay~ and I got a Merit, close to distinction on my final piece *__*!!

I feel kind of relieved, I thought I'll only get a high pass (a pass is still a pass!) The only thing it let me down was the way I presented my final piece... T3T;; as it didn't scream out what the concept was... a lot of people got confused~! ahaha XD;;

I come bearing good news!!
Today I went to pick up my college A2 results, after work (I forgot it was results day and said I'll do over time), I was actually lucky to be able to get my results... since they stopped giving them out at 2pm! (I arrived at 2.15pm)

I managed to bag myself 3 As~ A in all my subjects! Lucky lucky!
It'll need a while for it to sink in... I guess I would be more happy if I was applying to university~ as I'll need my grades!
But for my current foundation diploma course, I only need 1 A level to enrol... I'll be more nervous next year when applying to university!
 

Finished my last exam today! *__* I think I did okay, I wrote so much my wrist/hand hurts!
This maybe... my last written exam? So for the sake of remembering... the pain and suffering of revision!

I finished my second to last exam today. One more to go, then I am officially f r e e!!! I can’t imagine how it’ll be… officially finishing school… I’ve been waiting for this day for so long! (I might actually cry!) I won’t say how my exam went today since I might jinx it…

I want to watch so many movies!! Hancock, Teeth, The happening and… this one called Cleaners with Samuel L Jackson! *__*
And look at what I’ve been eye-balling when I’m at work!   It's so cute!! ♥ ♥ ♥

Wah wah wahhhhh~~ T__T!!!!!!
Finally finished my graphics and art exam and is SERIOUSLY deprived for sleep. Though I still can’t feel the relief, as I’m on the late shift at work tomorrow… (Has to work till 9pm…T^T)
I still feel as though I could have done more for my graphics and art exam... it’s too late now, so I just have to deal with it >__<;; hehe, however, I did pump up my arm muscles lodging my work around… maybe a bit too much…
As a celebration of completing my exams, I went to watch “Iron Man”… it was AMAZING!!! *__*!! I didn’t expect to like it so much, as I usually complain about films. I knew little about Iron Man and assumed he was just an “equipped” commoner like Batman. It has definitely replaced Spiderman as my top Marvel movie! Things I liked about it were the political story background to it and how neat the story ties up together. The graphics left me in awe, like the green hologram, as well as the ending credits song… <3
I think… girls are doomed to be swayed by cocky men, though they bring you NO GOOD! 0__0!! *points finger out*
I also found out I’m on LCC’s entry list for sure to start my next school year! (I was worried as I hadn’t heard from them since I’ve returned my slip confirming my placement.) I get to enrol in 22nd September; meaning my birthday will be on a holiday still! *__*! YAYERS!

Now I need to plan what to do with my summer… such as…
1) Revise for film studies exams in June
2) Sort out commission info
3) Do my London expo competition piece
4) Enter NEO competition! (For sure this year! T__T)
5) Maybe do a one shot and CG like I’ve never CG-ed before!

Hehe, but we all know I’ll be lazy and will be devoured by dramas and shoujo manga *__*;; (I seriously need to get back to reading shonens…!!)

I need your honest opinions! *__*!!
As I'm considering on doing commissions in the summer... maybe... I dunno... T__T;;

 

 

Subject/event	Date	Time
Graphics	28th - 30th April	?
Fine art	7th - 9th May	?
Study Leave	15th May	-
London expo	24th - 25th May	-
Film studies	18th June	13.30-15.00
Film studies	20th June	09.00-11.00

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Happy Easter my happy bunnies! <3

These past days, I’ve done nothing but freeze my nuggets off! T__T;; I spent the whole day wearing two hoodies and a winter hat to keep warm indoors, since my heating conveniently wouldn’t turn on… T^T!!

Random bits and bobs:

1)      I forgot to say that Minho Kwon gave a talk at my school (before Christmas), it was amazing! I later emailed him to thank him for the inspiration and he emailed me back to encourage me to keep on drawing (though he never saw my works @__@;;! Ahaha, I still feel so motivated! I can’t believe I forgot so quickly!)

2)      I finished of my production film. It was FUN but exhausting, though I secretly enjoyed editing. We did all the filming in one day so it was quite stressing and I had to keep hunting my main actor since he likes to float about to charm his special lady friends! I’m glad that everyone is on good terms and no one had any arguments~ *wipes sweat*

I’m wondering if this is a wake up call of a hidden passion…(I’ll never be a director though, ahaha I’m not cut out to boss people about!) though thinking about it, it made me realise I would never be satisfied staying/continuing on still image… if that made sense? I’ll like to think I’m moving towards moving image one day!  @__@;; *shrugs*  (I’ll post screen caps later!) 

3)      I’ve read so much shoujo I think corn is falling out of my ears every time I breathe ~__~;;

My current favourite is “Kaichou wa Maid-sama!” by Hiro Fujiwara. (Is the fan of the stupid trio and perfect boy Usui! *squeals* <3 I need to find time to read Special A too…)

4)      I finally watch “Grave of the Fireflies”, the only part I got teary was the beginning. (I had no idea why!) Though I never fully cried, it was still a great movie!

5)      I watched Pulp Fiction in my film classes…AND OHHHH~ that special “MALE BONDING” scene is forever engraved in my head now… O_O… it was so… aggressive? I must say Tarantino has corrupted me quite a bit. (Didn’t know what a GIMP was before. Etc; I admit… there’s something INCREDIBLY frightening about him… T^T;; )

6)      My website host is utter P A N T S! =__=;; I never noticed how I only had 100MB bandwidth a month, so I’ll need to upgrade sometime in the future. I’m considering on spending £50 a year for 2,500MB of space and my domain name as well a set up fee? But I’ll need to do some serious searching as I don’t trust my host~ =__=!!  

Aww~ My C:drive is officially kapoot and burnt out! All my school work and CGs were on that drive >___<;; (luckily, my main coursework projects are all handed in!) I was rotating between 5 CGs: 2 requests, 3 bleach fan art; 3 of which were almost completed… OTL;;



I have to say that my new year didn’t go so well, since January, I’ve…

1) Lost my old phone and my sim chip when my current phone was off to repair (at least it wasn’t my new phone right? I still had £14 of credit on it and personal text messages on that sim T^T!! )

2) I might be made redundant from my current job OTL;; I find out on the 19th…I think…

3) My PC died on me, which practically had everything on it… T0T;; photos, school work, all my CG programmes, manga etc >0<;;



But~ I know things will get better *__*;; it could be a lot worse, so I should be grateful for that! I’m feeling the emptiness of not being able to read manga everyday, ahaha /dork

Also, I got into LCC! (My 1st choice) I was so nervous in the interview. My stomach was hurting so badly, I felt like throwing up! O_<;;


[mood| moody]

Wah~ I can’t wait, only five days till Christmas!
I can feel everyone getting into the happy festive mood and that’s what makes Christmas time so enjoyable~ because everyone seems so jolly, even though they don’t celebrate the day religiously!

Anyways… I did a lot of thinking lately! I always thought that people know the difference between right and wrong and that they learn from their mistakes (or from others’ mistakes) to always try better themselves. But it’s not true?!
I thought that friends should tell each other if they did something wrong and such, so you help them out. I’ve tried numerous times but failed because they always seem so defensive, suddenly asking for examples of times. When I do name an example, they would give me such a lame excuse! It’s quite upsetting. I’m not trying to attack them; I’m trying to make them realize their faults. Maybe they just don’t want to admit it to themselves, or see themselves all righteous and pure! I gave up on trying to help them because they just won’t listen…

After being absent the whole of last week, I’m back at school now!
I only really got better on Sunday, but still felt the groggy after-ness on Monday! Ahaha, but now everyone around me is sick and I found out that they are all vomiting too, such a scary flu… O_O;;

This week was really tough because of deadlines and such. I had to rush everywhere to catch up on work and had some unexpected mocks! T^T;; In the end, I got my foundation art application form done, so it’s a HUGE relief! I applied to LCC as my first choice, since I wanted to go there ever since I was a wee child. Camberwell was my second choice!

Today, I found out that my screen play, along with another 3 screenplays by other classmates, was chosen to be produced into a short film! My screen play was kinda like a live action of Death Note, except I made up my own characters in the death note situation… if that made sense @__@;;

Ahaha, it’s so scary. I’m in charge of finalizing the screenplay, directing, editing and costume design… so much work! I’m not looking forward to it~ I’m scared my group will have arguments and unreliable people… ;__; Plus I have to boss the others around... I don't want them to hate me, ahaha... T^T!!

One more week left of school then I can finally relax a little!

[  E D I T : ] I almost forgot!! THIS ADVERT SCARES THE LIVING DAYLIGHTS OUTTA ME! O__O;;
The man reminds me of someone... perhaps a movie? But I can't place I finger on it!

Quick update before I do some school work~ @A@;; ahaha (I seem to blog a lot about school!)

But yosh! I got a tamagotchi on Wednesday as an early Christmas presentt~ I’m so happy T__T!! ahaha, I’ve been wanting one for the longest time, but it’s kinda expensive for an old trend (£15!!! I would have thought it’ll be under £5!!)!! Heheh thank you sweetie pie!! I’ll take good care of her *__*b!!! <3<3<3


Other stuff that happened is;

1) I quitted from the t-shirt printing group! I felt bad because since I’ve joined, I’ve only did two designs and they did two designs daily. When they told me their ideas and concepts for me to draw, I realized that it’s not my number one priority. I’m not taking it seriously when they are since they even tried taking out a business loan from the bank… T__T;;

2) I’m applying to do foundation art! I think it’ll be fun, though lots of work! <3 I leave the “deciding what to do with my life” till later.

3) I watched 30 days of night and Beowulf in cinema, both of them are watchable but I’m not sure if I’ll recommend them! 30 days of night is worth watching because of Josh Harnett~ *__* and Beowulf is fun since it’s in 3D and you get 3D glasses! Lol




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[mood| working]
[music| Massive Attack]

Wow~ it seems like I’ve disappeared off line for a good month or so! In truth, I wanted to update, but I always forget. Now all the funny, strange and important things seem insignificant to write out, plus there’s too much to say! Ahaha ^_^
My largest concern right now is… me slacking off school! It’s so bad~ T^T!! I’m so badly organised, I have so much I have to do (not only in school) and the growing stress is affecting my sleep!
But I got to watch one of the episodes of 5cm/s, it was so great T^T!! I cried so much, dripping nose and all! I watched the first few episodes of LOVE*COM and I really like it! Though I found the humour different to the manga? Or is it just me imagining it? Ahaha, I just realised my attention span is so low that I can’t watch an anime episode further than the opening song~ I’m so terrible =__=;;
Christmas is coming so fast! I feel really excited because it’s T U R K E Y time! I get to sleep as though I’m hibernating and pile up on the fat too ^_^v

If I manage to complete lots of things on my “things to do list”, I may enter the Kodansha manga competition! *A*!
Art and random photos will be posted in my next post! I should get back to some hard work! TAT!! *slaves away*



[mood| determined! Y E A H! ]
[music| Frou frou ]
[currently doing| writing essays~ TAT !! ]

Woww~~ I haven’t updated in a while! I need to keep my blog alive since I’m not really active anywhere else ;w;
But onto the random update of news!!:

• In school, I dropped media studies, so I won’t be making a documentary and have more free time! But I left my partner to continue it by himself. But I really had to quit that class since I was doing a lot of the work myself and couldn’t take it anymore. I almost cried when talking to my teacher about leaving! Lol, I felt so bad… but now I feel kinda stupid = 3=;;
• I was accepted as an in-page graphic designer for my school magazine/year book, so I feel kinda happy to be part of it! Make lots of happy memories! Though it’ll take up some of my time…
• I also joined one of my classmates in designing t-shirts, but I’m not really sure what he wants/expects from me, so I have really started yet ;A;
• I didn’t make it to the October London expo, since I had work! But I dunno… some reason I don’t feel excited about it anymore, every time it’s the same~ so I already know what to expect? I didn’t even think about it until it was mentioned before! I “left/skipped” work around 12ish today, so I still had time to go, but I didn’t feel the urge to… and I didn’t need to cosplay with the others…so I had no reason to go? It’s weird…ahaha, maybe because I know I’ll spend A LOT on merchandise, especially if there are Totoro stuffs… I’ve lost my passion for conventions!! @A@;;

So much has happened! Sorry that I haven't been commenting! T_T!! Let’s see…

 • Back at school for a while now, continuing four of my subjects, going to make a documentary and filming a short film! *0*! Found my lost exams slips, completed all application forms and now have hardly any time to do anything, what about my doujinshi projects~~?!! T__T!! Need to apply for university now!
• I keep getting these scam emails from people who have overcome unfortunate situations and now have a wad of cash with nothing better to do with it. They wish in invest some money into my bank account =__=;; so… in the end, all they want is my bank details to rob my money!!
• I’m officially 18… O_O!! My birthday was a happy day! My Totoro hat got delivered to me on the exact day <3 (though it didn’t have the poms poms it was supposed to have… T__T;; ) I finally got a new phone after 3-4 years! Hehe, I’m not the type to spend money on electronics, unlike my siblings who upgrade every year O_O! So expect lots of random photos from me! <3 (I miss my old phone now… T^T;; )I got a GHD straightener too, so it seems like an expensive birthday… T__T;; *feels guilty*
 

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[mood| busy]

[mood| geeky]

Testing out new pens I received today >__<;;

ahh~! I worry too much!
I’m still moping around about how I did in my last exam and how I feel like I’ve let myself down. I should be thinking like THIS: “At least I have another chance to correct my wrongs”, “At least I know I didn’t fail completely” and “That’s what I get for being over confident!”
I want to enjoy my summer >A<;;

(In the drawing~ his t-shirt label is sticking out, thats the thing flapping out!)

[mood| stressed]

1) It’ll be cheaper to buy Japanese manga than translated manga
2) Scanlations are WAY too slow!
3) I find that my favourite mangas are not being licensed so I can’t own a readable copy until it does! T^T;;
4) The mangas I’m interested in aren’t really the mainstream/popular ones, so it’s kinda hard to find in English.


[mood| worried]